So remember that post a little while back about Mr. K wanting another baby...well he got his wish. Apparently, we timed things right and I'm due in March. So literally I peed on a stick this morning and waited for Mr. K to wake up so I could tell him.
Mr. K was awesome and so excited when I told him! It was great considering what I was feeling.
As soon as the digital test came up Pregnant, I smiled and got excited. Then I got scared...like super scared. CAN I DO THIS AGAIN?
All the memories of my son's birth came flooding back. The vomit, the pain, the forceps, the recovery, and then being a mom. The screaming, reflux, sleepless nights.
I am super excited, but I'm super scared
Obviously, we will be fine and it's nothing financial, honestlyit's just me and my insecurities of being a mom. I enjoy going to work, and this summer home with Ben has made me realize I do not have what it takes to be a stay at home mom. I do not know how SAHM do it. I tip my hat to you, because I am at a loss for daily activities, and I keep feeling that I am doing more damage than good to my son this summer.
I am petrified of screwing him up. He has thrived in daycare and is this magnificant little social person, and now we sit at home, and go out to the store, and do swim lessons, and other occasional outings, but otherwise I feel like I am letting him down.
And another baby makes the rest of those feelings overwhelming. Am I a good mom to one kid much less can I handle 2 kids?
If anyone wonders over to my little corner of the world please let me know if this is normal
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