Overwhelmed

So yesterday was one of those days

It was my first official day as a "SAHM" for the summer, and I didn't handle it very well.  There were toys everywhere, Ben threw his food at me, I smelled, he was sticky.  He was a little fussy but nothing crazy, so I was thinking about why I got overwhelmed.

Sometimes I think about how much my life has changed, and I love it, but sometimes I also wish I could disappear for a while.  I think the pressure of Ben's party, finishing school up for the year and another busy weekend just made me crack a little bit.

I was speaking to Mr. K last night, and I guess he just doesn't get it...he tries to be supportive, but I am tired of being Ben's mom.  I love my son, he is amazing, but I would like to sit in a bubble bath, or get a facial, and not have anyone bother me.  Not have to pick up the toys for the 400th time that day, dishes, bottles, cleaning, diapers, and then take care of Mr. K oh and don't forget to brush your teeth or put on deodorant (which I may or may not have forgotten yesterday).  Lather-rinse-repeat.

I NEED A BREAK!

And I feel bad asking for one.  My mom is usually my go to person for a break, but I feel guilty asking her all the time.  She is more than willing to watch Ben any time but I feel guilty about relying on her too much.  I feel like I should be able to handle Ben by myself.  He is not a crazy baby, he is not fussy, unless tired, he sleeps through the night.  I have an awesome kid, and yet I am overwhelmed, and feel guilty about asking my mom to give me a break.

For my millions of followers...does this happen to you?  I feel like this is one of those things you have to ask an anonymous group.  If I asked the small group of friends who have children, they would look at me like I was crazy.