See ya 2012!

2012 is rapidly coming to a close.  Only 2 and a half hours left.

I am so excited for the new year!  2012 really made me feel like I was a good mom, I felt reconnected to my sleep deprived husband, obviously we reconnected since I'm knocked up again. My little man started talking, walking, and imitating us this year.  It has been fascinating to watch and I am in constant awe of how spongelike his brain really is. 

I feel more confident in my marriage.  We have been married for 5 years.  That isn't a really long time but so far we have definitely had our ups and downs.  We have been through deaths in the family, unemployment, underemployment, money woes, graduate school for the both of us, 2 pregnancies and raising a toddler.  I am not saying we are experts but I finally feel pretty confident in my marriage.  This may change tomorrow, but right now, we are communicating well, working together as a team, and feeling appreciative of each other.  That's not to say this year has been complete rainbows and sunshine out of our butts, but the ups have dominanted the downs.  I truly love my husband and I know he loves me, even though we sometimes drive each other nuts and say things we don't mean, and sometimes pass on sex in order to sleep. But overall I look at him and know I married my match.  He gets me, understands me, loves me, still finds me sexy, and makes me laugh.

Now onto the scary stuff.  2013 brings parenthood to two kids.  And I have to say I am absolutely petrified.  2 kids is a lot, and there are so many worries, will the boys love each other?, will Ben try and kill the new baby?, will I die of sleep deprivation?, will I remember how to push and breastfeed? And on and on.  I know it will be rough but the unknown seems scarier than I ever thought.

Everyone have a great New Year!!!