2011-2012

I identify years as school years.  So to me the school year of 2011-2012 is drawing to a close. 

This year has been hard.  As I write this post I am sitting at home with a sick, napping baby.  I have used almost all of my sick time this year, and it was not for me.  Fortunately for me, my Winter Break was spent with the stomach flu.  Yay Christmas!

This year has been dealing with Mom Guilt.  I don't know if that is an official term but I have been torn all year.  I love my job, but I love my kid more.  I love being home with him, but I hate being home with him.  I love having a day to talk to friends at work and feel important outside of the home, and I love being home watching him all day, playing, and seeing him absorb knowledge like a sponge.  I constantly worry about doing the right thing, being a good mom, and all the while I worry about being a good teacher, and planning effective lessons. 

Mr. K has been putting on the pressure for me to stay home full time.  And even then I don't know what to do and go back and forth on it all the time.  But I feel like that is an entirely different post.

It is all a balancing act, and I don't think I have hit my stride yet.  Or maybe I won't  Any moms have advice, wisdom, or whatever I am totally open to it all.  Just don't talk bad about my kid and we will be cool.

Speaking of Ben, this is day three home with my little wheezing boy. And I am rocking dirty hair, old sweats and a ratty T-shirt.  I did put a bra on and brush my teeth so I feel somewhat accomplished

Oh and I started a blog that no one reads