So I lived through my First Mother's Day. I was super pregnant and not in a good mood at this time last year so I really wanted to relish this year with my little man!
And I also reflected on the differences from last year. How much I have changed, how much Ben has changed, older and wiser and learning each day. Me older, looking older, maybe wiser and certainly satisfied with being a mother. Ben is the most perfect child!
We had a rough start, with nights up with heating pads and gas drops begging for him to get relief. There were nights when I would sit on the floor and cry right along with him. The first time he got sick and croup. Learning about how to care for his asthma. Worrying he would stop breathing. Worrying I was doing everything I could, and most of all worrying I was a good mom.
But then I remember the times when we would nap together all summer, rocking a sleeping baby in my arms on the porch, watching him smile, roll over, sit up, pull up, crawl, cruise, teethe, laugh, giggle, clap, snuggle and talk. Tonight I rocked my baby after his bottle and as he wrapped his little arms around my neck and snuggled into my chest, I knew that I loved this little person more than life itself. I always know that but sometimes we need little reminders and tonight was mine.
And while I rocked him and sang I was reminded of my favorite book as a child. And I smiled as I rocked him and said, " I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be." -Robert Munsch
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