Baby #2

So Mr. K has the baby fever.

I would love to have another baby but I am also super scared. We were just getting settled and finally have a couple of hours to ourselves every night, heck we can even get to bed early ;)

I love Ben and I want to give him siblings but I am torn.  Should we go for it and stay in the land of babies and diapers and stress?  Should we wait and really enjoy Ben for a few years?  Are we changing our family dynamic too much?  I just don't know the questions to these answers, and honestly I don't think anyone does.

My parents want me to wait, but they waited 5 years after me to have my siblings and I love my brothers I really do but we are just always so far apart in our lives.  I feel like we never really became friends.  I was more like a second mother, a cooler authority figure and I want my kids to be closer in age. 

Mr. K's parents want more grandchildren, thus why Mr. K thinks a great idea too.  I'm not going to get into that whole mess.

But mostly it's me gumming up the works. I keep changing my mind.  One minute I'm all like oh yeah let's get this party started and the next minute I'm brushing Mr. K off, saying I don't know if another baby is a good idea.  When we got pregnant with Ben we planned it, we both wanted it, and now I just don't have the same need the same yearning as I did to have Ben.  So I wonder is it the right time?  Is it ever the right time? 


If anyone actually reads this blog, I could sure use the advice and help.